I want to be unstoppable!

ya know? Like that Santigold song. Here you go, you can listen to this song while you read the rest of my post


There is this restless feeling in me that has been growing.

Good things have been happening in my life, I have many people surrounding me who adore me and I’m having fun just being with them. I feel sometimes like I’m having too much fun and that life will come back to bite me in the ass sooner or later and then I’ll be sorry. I should be working! I should be saving money! I should be paying off my student loans and looking for a real job instead of waiting tables! But…I like the freedom this life brings. Hanging out with friends in the sun and going to concerts is all I want to do at the moment. Is that so wrong?

I will not be a slave to a 9-5! I can’t see myself following the traditional school->work->work->work->retire->live framework. I want to live the life I want to live NOW. I have so many self-help-y books littering my room. Here are a few:

  • “The 4-Hour Workweek: Escape 9-5, live anywhere, and join the new rich” by Timothy Ferris
  • “Career Renegade: How to make a great living doing what you love” by Jonathan Fields
  • “Uncertainty: Turning fear and doubt into fuel for brilliance” by Jonathan Fields
  • “Escape from Cubicle Nation: From corporate prisoner to thriving entrepreneur” by Pamela Slim, foreword by Guy Kawasaki (that RichDadPoorDad dude)
  • “The Mind: It’s projections and multiple facets” by Yogi Bhajan PhD, compiled by Gurucharan S. Khalsa

I’ve only just recently solidified that this is what I want, to live outside of the traditional box, but how….that is something that I pray pray pray will show itself to me along the way. But, I have to be working towards something. I can’t just wait for the perfect opportunity to show itself. I must choose something and work towards that. I’ll describe this feeling with an image:

It’s like I’m crossing a river by jumping on stones that are sticking out of the water. Only thing is, its foggy. So foggy in fact that I can only see one rock at a time in front of me. The wind is blowing heavily and I’m carrying a heavy load so I have to lean into the wind to not be knocked off balance and thrown into the rushing river. I have to consider the wind when jumping to the next rock. I do not know if there is a path that crosses the entire river, and I do not know how wide it is, but I must move forward…because I cannot go back.

Er…I just…can’t. Would you go back to where you were? I don’t know specifically where I’m going in life, but I do know that I ALWAYS ALWAYS want to be moving forward and growing and learning constantly. Challenges will always come up. You never know how close you may have been to reaching the end…

I just discovered this guy, Jonathan Budd who is focused on empowering ppl to become entrepreneurs. I like him because he talks very poignantly and also from a spiritual perspective: Only You Can Set Yourself Free

Some of his main points:

  1. book knowledge < experiential knowledge (my thoughts exactly  🙂
  2. you must embody what you wish to achieve
  3. your outer world mirrors your inner world so discipline your life and take care of your body, mind and spirit

Hope you found something interesting in this post. More coming soon.


Keep Up  xoxo

Hate Crime Against Sikhs; wake up America!

By now you have probably heard of the recent shooting at a Sikh temple in Wisconsin this past Sunday. It has definitely shaken up the whole Sikh community.

“When things are down and darkest, thats when we stand tallest…”

It has caused us to come together to educate our communities about Sikhism, and look at the larger issue here: ignorance. Since 9/11 anti-Islamic sentiment, according to the FBI has risen 1600%. Although Sikhism is a separate religion than Islam, we have always considered them as part of our human family. The “War on Terror” waged by our previous president who will not be named, along with other factors, has made fear of differences take a front seat in our political discourse. I’d say fear in general is used as a tool to manipulate and control many Americans. It is “us vs. them”! We need to take this tragic event as a wake up call. Here is an excellent article by a young Sikh woman for CNN about her family and her vision for a new, more aware America

How you can support the Sikh community, educate yourself and cultivate peaceful relationships with those different than you:

  • #1 EDUCATE YOURSELF Narinder Singh, Sikh Coalition chairman, discusses efforts to clarify misunderstanding about the Sikh community. A short interview with SALDEF on NPR
  • Find a vigil near you: http://www.kaurista.com/event, http://www.sikhcoalition.org/get-involved/act-now/information-for-community-support
  • Visit a Sikh temple. Services happen on Sundays usually starting around 11am and ending around 1 with a meal. Anyone and everyone are always welcome to come to the services (please remove your shoes and cover your head) and share in the meal afterwards.
  • Visit any temple of a different religious denomination than you.
  • Get to know someone who is different than you. Who are those people that you look at and think, “I wouldn’t want to find myself in a dark alley with them” or even. Who are those people that scare you or gross you out? Who are those people you automatically don’t like before meeting them just because they look or act in a way that is foreign to you? Maybe it’s someone who wears a turban, or a headscarf, or an elderly person who smells funny, or a differently-abled person who you feel you can’t relate to, or a homeless person. People are more similar than you’d think. Buy them a cup o’ coffee, talk to them.
  • Have a conversation about this hate crime and hate crimes in general.
  • Meditate/ Pray and send healing to those affected. May we see ourselves in the other and act through love, not hate.
  • If you are part of a Sikh community, contact your local media, start Sikh 101 classes, DO MORE SEWA in your local community so that you may be known for your selfless service,
  • Support the Wisconsin Sikh community and find out more about how you can get involved.
  • Donate to cover medical and funeral costs
  • Be more self-reflective and introspective. Are there people you dislike even though you have never met them? Why? Can you let it go?

Whatever you choose to do, even if it is tweeting about this or making it your facebook status for a day, please do not perpetuate this cycle of hatred. Take this as an opportunity to feel compassion, send out a healing prayer to all those affected and check yourself. How often do you feel fear or dislike towards someone who is different than you? Educate yourself. Do not act from ignorance and impulse. Do not believe everything our politicians, the media and society tell you. Think for yourself.

Can you look into the eyes of another, who you may fear because they are different, yet see their human-ness which is the same as yours?



Try a meditation to handle depression, deal with an addiction or heal yourself

“The most beneficial way of breathing is to inhale completely by filling your lungs with the breath and then exhale and completely empty them. By intentionally focusing attention on your breath, you are practicing conscious breathing.

By changing the rhythm and depth of your breath one can begin to change addictive behavioral patterns.”  –http://www.super-health.net


…lifts us up where we belong

…makes the world go ’round

…is all ya need

it is not a feeling but a state of being.

“i have forgotten all my learnings, but from knowing you I have become a scholar…”

it has to start from somewhere deep inside yourself. if you don’t have an understanding of what it means to be in love with you, how can you be able to love anyone else? everyone else is a mirror.

no one will ever be good enough without first loving yourself.

strength must come from that infinite place,

you came alone and alone you shall leave

and in between there will be beautiful people and place to love

and that is the beauty of life

it expands you

it flows through you and makes you look at the world with child-like eyes of wonder

“The lovely one whispers under her breath, and you go mad, witless, no reason left…O Lord, what is this chant, what magic art, that weaves its spell on even a stone heart?” ~Rumi

where your thoughts end, love begins

“…en el amor como agua de mar te has destado:

mido apenas los ojos mas extensos del cielo

y me inclino a tu boca para besar la tierra”

“…in love you have loosened yourself like sea water:

I can scarcely measure the sky’s most spacious eyes

and I lean down to your mouth to kiss the earth.”

   ~Pablo Neruda

where there is love there is no question.

in love, the impossible becomes possible

No one can measure, not even poets, how much a heart can hold.

How much passion can one heart hold?

just leave me here love

I just get so filled up with…well, with what? Love? Oh god that sounds so cheesy. Lust for life? Maybe.

I bet you have already heard this song already but it is one of those ones you can’t listen to just once in a row. It amazes me how relevant this song is for so many people I know right now, myself included. This song has everything going for it, good lyrics, good vocals, good background music. Oh and not to mention the music video is captivating. Raw.

Whatever it is, it makes me want to throw all social norms out the fucking window and dance and sing at the top of my lungs. There are not many things I can do in a daily routine that will quell this thirst of self-expression.


I want to be in the woods. I want to commune with the trees and the natural cycles of life, not this concrete jungle that force feeds me lies of an ethnocentric, consumerist culture focused on the individual.

I’m figuring out how to channel this energy into more productive things than dreams. Dreams ain’t gonna pay the bills or save the world* (my #1 priority)

a piece of my heart was left there

I love how he just belts this out, and the guitar is pleasantly reminiscent of Vampire Weekend.

*I have a healthy understanding that no person, no matter how amazing can “save” the world. It is just too long and wide and contains way too many conflicting interests for anyone to feel burdened by this grand task. There is no need to place so much pressure on yourself. Still, I am an optimist and will never give up the hope that maybe I will be able to effect some positive change that will last.

….   w  h e r e    do we go from here……..?

Self-doubt is my worst enemy…aaand Kashmir…er Led Zeppelin?


My mind is the only thing standing in my way. It pulls me into a black hole of doubt that holds me down and tells me I’m not worth it. I can’t possibly do it. No way. What was I thinking? I do a lot of things, but yet, I still feel there is a voice of fear that is keeping me from reaching my full potential and striving towards my dreams.

I’m starting to get fed up with this fear shit.

I’m at the point now where I’m challenging it. It is still there, but I go for what I want anyway.

Shoot for the moon, even if you miss, you’ll land among the stars

There is this class through the conflict and dispute resolution masters program that recently opened up some of their classes to undergrads. So, more than half the class is grad students, which is more my level at this point anyway, but it’s still overwhelming. The class is basically a mixture of political science, history, econ, foreign policy and some all mixed in together to look in-depth at 7 major national conflicts around the world. Examples: China and Taiwan, Israel/ Palestine, Kashmir (India and Pakistan), etc. It has been absolutely kicking my butt, and the teacher is super intimidating, which has made me slightly nervous when I need to talk to him one on one but also motivated me to study more so I don’t sound like an idiot when I talk to him. I’ve become really interested in the current conflict of Kashmir involving Pakistan and India which is potentially the most dangerous conflict because it is the only one in the world where both sides possess nuclear weapons. Yikes.

The conflict with Kashmir, like many border conflicts still going on today dates back to those British dunces who, with their outdated, poorly drawn maps, divided up land into different nations at their leisure. “…it had been created rather off-handedly by the British after the first defeat of the Sikhs in 1846, as a reward to a former official who had sided with the British.” It was connected to India through the Punjab, but was at the time, 77% Muslim so everyone assumed that it would eventually become part of Pakistan. After India declared independence in 1947, Kashmir had the choice of becoming part of Pakistan or India.

After hesitation (and thoughts of just making an independent Kashmir) a mutiny of Muslim regimen broke out in Kashmir and Maharaja Hari Singh implored India to help. India agreed on the condition that Kashmir accede to India. This is what is now Jammu and Kashmir in northern India. Conflict continues because the population is majority Muslim and many want to join Pakistan. Many want to be part of an independent Kashmir. It was always assumed that the Kashmiris would be given the opportunity at some point to vote on what they wanted, but that is yet to occur. I find this conflict especially interesting as I am half Punjabi and Sikh and my family was in the Punjab during the time of the Indo-Pakistan war of 1947-1948, also known as the Partition. Not to mention that Kashmir used be part of the Sikh empire under Maharaja Ranjit Singh.

And I just had to add this song “Kashmir” by Led Zeppelin. I’ve never been a huge fan, but I appreciate his passionate performance and they may just be growing on me.

Oh let the sun beat down upon my face, stars to fill my dream
I am a traveler of both time and space, to be where I have been
To sit with elders of the gentle race, this world has seldom seen
They talk of days for which they sit and wait and all will be revealed

Talk and song from tongues of lilting grace, whose sounds caress my ear
But not a word I heard could I relate, the story was quite clear
Oh, oh.

Oh, I been flying… mama, there ain’t no denyin’
I’ve been flying, ain’t no denyin’, no denyin’

All I see turns to brown, as the sun burns the ground
And my eyes fill with sand, as I scan this wasted land
Trying to find, trying to find where I’ve been.

Oh, pilot of the storm who leaves no trace, like thoughts inside a dream
Heed the path that led me to that place, yellow desert stream
My Shangri-La beneath the summer moon, I will return again
Sure as the dust that floats high in June, when movin’ through Kashmir.

Oh, father of the four winds, fill my sails, across the sea of years
With no provision but an open face, along the straits of fear

When I’m on, when I’m on my way, yeah
When I see, when I see the way, you stay-yeah

Ooh, yeah-yeah, ooh, yeah-yeah, when I’m down…
Ooh, yeah-yeah, ooh, yeah-yeah, well I’m down, so down
Ooh, my baby, oooh, my baby, let me take you there

Let me take you there. Let me take you there